In 2025 I experienced my first faith failure in God. I thought he told me who my husband was, but when the promise never materialized I fell into a deep depression. The anger and bitterness I felt from not seeing God move in that area caused me to believe that maybe he wasn't as good as he says he is. Eventually I started feeling totally separated from God. To the point where it was like I was out in space, floating with no protection, or guidelines to lead me back to the ship....
How To Stop Feeling Inferior To Outgoing People
You're having lunch with a few people you associate with. You're staring down at your plate, quiet, but ears ringing as the group around you laughs and talks about whatever pops into mind. Their conversation is flowing effortlessly. No lulls. No shaking voices. No blank stares....
I Thought God Told Me Who My Husband Was – I Was Wrong
I spent all of 2025 believing a man whom I'd never seen was my God-promised husband. What started as a year full of hope and expectation ended with me questioning if I even still believed in God....
My Desire For A Man Stole My Faith In God
The desire to be loved has consumed me since I was at least three years old. I'd make funny faces or do little dances in an effort to be found cute by the people around me. I remember that even at that tender age I wanted a boyfriend. Delusionally, I thought (and hoped) that the friends of my older brothers "liked me, liked me"....
5 Things That Make Holding Conversations Difficult
Recently, I spent 13 - 14 hours talking on the phone with a guy I met online. Our conversation was split between two days and much of that time was spent with him doing most of the talking and with many awkward silences in between. From this experience, I learned...
Renting Your First Apartment When You Have Social Anxiety
Renting an apartment for the first time can be scary for anyone. Especially once you see some of these rent prices! But besides the usual nerves that come with making such a big decision in life. Social anxiety can make...