In 2025 I experienced my first faith failure in God. I thought he told me who my husband was, but when the promise never materialized I fell into a deep depression. The anger and bitterness I felt from not seeing God move in that area caused me to believe that maybe he wasn't as good as he says he is. Eventually I started feeling totally separated from God. To the point where it was like I was out in space, floating with no protection, or guidelines to lead me back to the ship....
I Thought God Told Me Who My Husband Was – I Was Wrong
I spent all of 2025 believing a man whom I'd never seen was my God-promised husband. What started as a year full of hope and expectation ended with me questioning if I even still believed in God....
My Desire For A Man Stole My Faith In God
The desire to be loved has consumed me since I was at least three years old. I'd make funny faces or do little dances in an effort to be found cute by the people around me. I remember that even at that tender age I wanted a boyfriend. Delusionally, I thought (and hoped) that the friends of my older brothers "liked me, liked me"....
My Parents Sheltered Me. Now I Have Social Anxiety.
I didn't realize I was being sheltered by my parents until I got to college. Up until then, my life revolved around them and I had little to no experience in life. I noticed that I was the odd one out when I would be the only one shocked at the things my peers talked about. While they saw it as normal to go places without adult supervision. I found it new and scary. While they shared stories of spending the night at a guys house and running the streets with friends. I found it appalling that they were out there acting like they were grown!...
How To Stop Being Bored When You Have No Friends
As a socially anxious person, I haven't been able to make/keep friends since I was 13 years old. There's the occasional coworker or guy from a dating site to hang out with. But since my brain won't allow me to open up to them, no lasting connections have been made....
How I Started Forcing Myself Out Of The House
I Never Got Out Of The House Because I Made Excuses I spent my entire life in the house because I didn’t have friends to go anywhere with. Even when I did meet people who tried to include me I’d...